Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Yo.

Haiku of the Day
Camera rolling
and- action! !Run hamster run!
flop. No, wait, new deal.

So I'm liking this Haiku of the Day thing, although by the time I've tramped around to eight classrooms and put up a new one, it gets to be a bit of a pain. Haikus I kind of adopted to get myself out of the whole square-on-unflinching-slap-in-the-face world view in my writing. I went four months without writing anything I liked; I still haven't really, I'm in a bit of a dry spell, so I'm trying new things. I have been published here, and in the Claremont Review, a "youth writing anthology" which gets published twice a year. I'm in a book! Yay. Made me very happy.

Last night, after I got out of school (I go to school seven hours a day in a building that's pretty much been assembled out of other buildings. Parts of it are dark green-and-light green [sagey-green] striped with tiles, other parts are oatmeal-ey bland stucco with navy blue trim, and on the front of the building there is what is reignedly called the "Monstrosity," a designer awning of bright-yellow corrugated steel that offers no protection from the wind, the neverending rain, the sunlight, or indeed itself. It cost more than the organs of half the student body would on the black market. I think if we ever had an earthquake it would bring the building down with it out of spite. Oh, and some obtuse and sick-minded person decided over the summer that the doors would all be repainted bright yellow or blue, and the spiral staircase down on wing bright red. I personally prefer to think they were trying to make some greater statement.) anyways, I got OUT of school and decided on a whim to tramp off and do my own thing for a couple of hours, instead of going home, arguing, doing homework.

I went for a walk in Bridgeman Park instead, down to the river where I never used to go, and sat right by the water. At this time of year it's mostly torrential, but I didn't even think of that until later when my mother nagged me about it. I just- sat, took some photos on the way there and then just sat, stared up, wrote a little. I always am writing a little. One of the things I wrote, as part of a slam poem (I wrote one brilliant slam, and have never written another I like, but I figure these things come and go) was about the future. I started to think, walking down to the river through the park with all the leaves falling off the trees, about the fact that in fifty years, the whole place would probably just be another strip mall, and then I went soemwhere warm and bought a cup of coffee and sat and thought and then I wandered off, walked back up the frigging great hill home and I just saw this vision- not the schizoid hallucinatory kind, the steeped mental picture- of a future, obviously not a real one, of a whole planet completely covered in concrete, except for a McDonalds and a Starbucks sitting opposite each other, with eight people left, getting ready for the noon rush.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

There was a time when I would have worn less lipstick.

Of course, I drowned that particular time in a bag with a rock and a river. So that's okay, then. When I finally have a decent picture of me taken, I'll upload it so you can see what you're dealing with, not that there is any "you" at the moment.

Just so I remember to extrapolate this thought later on: what does it mean to be someone who believes wholeheartedly in the future?

(I've ripped out my knitting twice; but I will continue trying.)

Got this shirt from Threadless in the mail. It manages to look okay and the subtlety of it isn't completely obscured by the rampant chest curve I've got going.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Haiku of the Day
*poof* Untoward smiles
wonder where the princess went
A frog sits enthroned.

I suspect dimly that I have too much time on my hands. Either that or I don't write enough. Or I don't write enough.

Nothing is better than waking up in the middle of a rainstorm. We don't get lightning storms here, barely ever: I'm on the coast, and we get temperate really wet winters, full of stormey rain. The water was falling so hard this morning that it sounded like it was in my room, although it's through my window, in big fat reasonably warm drops. The sort of wet where you stick your nose outside and you drown. I love the rain.

Wrote a sonnet today; I can't decide whether I should post the writing I'm in mind to publish or not. More on that later.

-K

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Except it doesn't now, it watches me for errors.

There is nothing in the world more paranoia-making than the knowledge that there is someone watching all the surveillance tapes where you work and making notes of your mistakes. Really there isn't. George Orwell would probably choke on his terror and indignation. I hate security cameras. I hate people who are breathtakingly rude to people behind counters. I hate that I am part of a counter, and that I have also, although unintentionally, treated other people like countertop. I am not countertop. At least I hope not.

As might be obvious, work was a bit weird. I think I may begin to rant about it soon, but tonight is really not the night.

I started knitting a really skinny scarf to teach myself how to knit a pattern, called "Network." That's the thing about knitting patterns: they have deceptively simple names, like "Hyacinth," "Bluebell," "CrissCross," "DOOM." Ten minutes in I discovered that my hair was knitted into the last couple of rows, do not ask me how I managed that, and that I had 17 more stitches than I was supposed to. My really skinny scarf looked like a snake that had just binged on a wombat. More on its' progress (now at approximately two inches) when there is more to report. I have no doubt writing about it will at least amuse me, although the knitting itself occasionally makes me homicidal. With two pointy metal sticks. It's really not a good plan.

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; have I mentioned that? Out of all the punctuation marks available to me for manipulation, semicolons are by far the most interesting; not only in shape, but also in the meaning they carry. Semi- colons. It's such a tentative name; they don't want to be REAL colons and actually denote important stuff, but they don't want to be commas, either, because commas are just periods with tails, and, I mean, why would you want to be a FULL stop when you could have a funky tail? Question marks run a close second.

-K

Work sort of liked me.

That's where I'm going now. More work; I work with a girl who says things like, "I hate foreign languages" and "I never recycle. I waste everything I can." I'm fairly sure she's half-joking, but why would you say that?

The new Bugs Bunny cartoons are stupid.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

at 5.00 AM I reached for the gun.

No, in all seriousness, I kind of like 5.00. Somewhat shameful, I know: if most people my age were faced with the apocalypse, they'd snort and roll over, maybe not even snort, but there's something pleasing about it.

After that horrible minute-and-ten of your alarm rocketing off, leaving you lying in the exhaust, exhausted, and struglling to pull... one.... limb.... out of bed, there's something to be said for a time when few people are up, it's grey-ish dim and neat-looking out, and there is so much day ahead of you still to be devoured. I'm going to work now. Work may or may not like me today; I may or probably won't like it to much, but at least I've perfected my double-gun Tom-Cruise Jerry-McGuire slide up to counter and "Yo"

All I need are some sunglasses.

Friday, November 03, 2006

A firm attack of the blearghs.

I was just existing along...

when

*WHOMP*

I was attacked by a unique and somewhat vicious cocktail of migraine and my mother. Never a good combination. Rarely good alone, for that matter, although mom can be a real doll when she feels like it.

I'm K., by the by: Kae being merely the phonetic spelling of this. Nice to meet you. Pleasure. All that slightly flat jazz, and a cherry-flavoured maraschino thing on the side. Wonder how they make those.

Anyways, life is okay: or was, until mom decided to run around the house and rave at everyone and make us all clean stuff. Stuff: what a great word. However, Wet, the story I'm working on right now, is progressing with something that might pass as success; more on that

HERE. More on that here. Wet, or that's the tentative name of the thing, begins like this: Maggie and Erich are out on their houseboat (newly bought for the trip, a 1970s thing that Maggie violently hates) arguing, as they've been doing for a while now. More accurately, Maggie is resenting the whole expedition, and Erich is being baffled by her lack of enthusiasm. Anyways, they hear a knock on the door

tap, tap-tap.

tap, tap-tap.


Maggie find Erich a hammer and stands him behind the door. She opens it-

hee hee hee. I've written past that point, but more on it later.

Finished my scarf for Pi, an old friend of mine, today: it is turquoise-ey light blue. I will post pictures if I master how to, but it's pretty simple, just six rows of garter and then then six of stockinette, with tassels. I'm seeing him tomorrow, and all torn between whether or not to give it to him then.

Now it's time for the Haiku of the Day, this thing I do in a bunch of classrooms at school and such: this is a newly started phenomena, so I'll give you yesterday's, because there isn't any school to day. (No more books... EAGH!)

Thou art ill, ach wheez
rasp shallow, snot green headaches
bolt down the walls, slow.